I Still Live in Two Americas

I have a great deal of anger this morning. I have a great deal of fear for my sons, and I have been here before. What seems like ages ago but in reality was just a few short years, former NFL player Colin Kaepernick ironically knelt to save lives. I am sure I am not the first to remember this fact, but I want to make sure it is not lost in [NFL parlance] the blitz of misdirection primarily used by the conservative media, to sack Mr. Kaepernick. I was told over and over that Mr. Kaepernick was un-American and the President of the United States referenced him and other players that supported him with vulgar language, “Wouldn’t you love to see one of these NFL owners, when somebody disrespects our flag, to say, ‘Get that son of a bitch off the field right now. Out! He’s fired. He’s fired!’” the president screeched.


President Obama was dragged through the racial pit of fire when he dared say Trayvon Martin could have been his son. The murdered George Floyd was 46-years old, and so is my oldest son. George Floyd is the father of a daughter, so is my son. George Floyd was a black man and so is my son. George Floyd could have been my son. The current President of the United States built his political home on the foundation of American racism; so should not the murder of Floyd and other black men have been expected? The excuses started in earnest yesterday when FBI and State officials held, what turned out to be a hastily called sham press conference, that generated the dubious news that President Trump and Attorney General Bill Barr are monitoring the situation. Erica MacDonald, the U.S. Attorney of the District of Minnesota said, “President Trump and Attorney General William Barr are actively monitoring the situation.

In an implied threat, the President subsequently tweeted out “when the looting starts, the shooting starts.” A self-identified lawyer on a morning talk show I listened to this morning said the slow movement to make an arrest of the police officers by Minneapolis authorities was because once an arrest is made the clock of justice starts to tick and that could compromise the case, tell that to the family of Kalief Browder. I am eerily drawn to the video of George Floyd’s murder like historians are to the grainy Zapruder film of the Kennedy assassination. I looked at the soles of the shoes of the police officers as they pinned the handcuffed man to the ground. I mention the soles of their shoes because they were visible. The importance of that is that they consciously exercised the full force of their weight on the prone body of George Floyd, especially his neck, making no effort to relieve the pressure by transferring the force.

The C4 level on your spine or vertebrae is the nerve point that allows you to breathe, I know this because I had that area fused in my neck a little over a year ago.  Mr. Floyd’s breath was stolen and restricted under the weight of the men. I have a friend who is a fireman and as part of their instruction he told me they use the phrase during training ‘C4, breathe no more.’ These police officers lynched Mr. Floyd without a rope. Hearing his voice call out to his deceased mother for help will haunt me forever. On the very laptop computer, I am using to type this piece, my wallpaper background reads, “I hope I don’t get killed for being black today.” I read that every morning before I walk out my front door and pray I get to read it again before I go to bed.

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